The last year of my 20's

I have disappeared from this blog, as I do from my many blogs I tend to keep on the good ole net. It is hard to keep going everything you want to keep going when you've just got too many things going. But I've got to say, I've tried livejournal, myspace, diaryland and about a billion and one other journal sites out there and Blogger (and of course designing my own site) has always been the ones I fell back on. Anywho, I've got throat infection number 5 right now and both sides of my neck are currently swollen and tender to the touch! Hooray for me! I work with germy little children.

I am in the last year of my 20's and I'm wondering what to do with myself. Although turning 30 hasn't really been on my mind much, it's actually all the things that go with me turning 30 - getting sicker easily, feeling like my body can't do the things it used to, feeling like time is going way too fast and I'm just moving way too slow... I remember feeling like turning 20 was taking forever and now, my 20's are nearly half over. It's strange to me to feel so distant from the younger generation. I don't know what or who is playing on the radio anymore and I don't get certain trends. My life has become completely absorbed in work, in school, and in my life with the man. I sometimes feel like I know no else. Yet I'm not quite upset about that. I just miss being youthful and innocent. I miss the uncertainty of deciding what I'm going to be when I grow up and coming to the conclusion that "Hell, I've got a few more years to decide."