Feeling Oh So Thirty

Sitting here past midnight and instilling my love for the internet as I use Stumble! to show me cool sites and listening to some cool hippy trippy Puffyamiyumi.... despite my stomach being in shambles, being overworked, overwhelmed, and overtired. 15 years ago I sat in the same bedroom, though a different color with different curtains, listening to a mix of grunge and punk, waiting for my life to "just begin". I wasn't lying in a bed that I share with my husband, instead, I was idealizing my future husband and his six figure salary with golden looks and promises to keep me safe, happy, and warm.

So different to be 15 years older and realize that all those dreams though didn't come true came to some realization at some point....